JohnMorlan said:

Question re. agreement #2 – "Choose my thoughts and spoken words about my ability, my true calling and myself."

I'd like to think that this comes easily and naturally for me but I'm feeling a bit stuck. I have lived on the edge of my true calling on many occasions and it was exhilarating – helping others and getting paid for it. But, I have also experienced lack of consistency – clients coming and going with few or none showing up to keep the cash flow going.

The question I have is How do I choose my thoughts and spoken words when the ugly Gremlin voice is saying, "Remember all those failures? What makes you think this time will be any different?"

John,

I like Suzanne's reply because it mirrors my expereince.  Often our callings have been calling all of our lives. In those rare moments when we decided to act on them we often just did not hang in their long enough or were close and needed tweaking to get he results we wanted.  So I have several suggestions for you.  But begin with gratitude. Then reframe the failures.  Be grateful that you've been sincerely enthused that many times and then go back and read the compass points in my True Calling Guidebook.  It's very possible that your answer is in one of those points.

At least you've been bloodied in the arena of authenticity and lived to create anew.  You are far better off than those timid souls who try to play it safe.  They end up with nothing and don't even get to taste the beginnings of bliss. 

I know you know this but that gremlin is simply your egoic mind wanting to proect the status quo.  Like Suzanne suggested, tell him to step back.  Tell him you're fine and going for it this time, all the way.  Then speak to that Higher John within and listen to what he says. 

be storng,

Tom